| HAPPY THREE YEAR ANNIVERSARY CODY!
Eventhough we didn't get to spend this special day together, I know in your heart that you really love and care about me. We will make it through this dark road and no matter what I'll always be by yourside too. I hope you know you are the greatest boyfriend in the world and I'm proud of you for everything you do. You are a hero to me! I LOVE YOU |
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| I love you to the end and I'll walk with you in the dark road.....it's going to be ok.... |
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| Everytime I get the chance to spend the weekend with Cody, time always end up going by so fast Ugh...it makes me wanna cry just thinking about it. I don't know.....I miss him already......ya I know...I'm such a loser. I don't want to miss him as much as I do now...but it seems like I can't control it. Honestly I hate myself for devoting so much part of me on him but he's so important to me.....I'm just so afraid of losing him.....I guess I just love him too much....too much. But it isn't like I can just love him less....it doesnt work that way. I dont' know what to do.....sometimes it really stresses me out because I feel so lost in myself. I wish I coudl be as easy going as Cody about this. He seems to be doing so well and I wish I could feel the same way. Sometimes I just wish I could see him when I wanted to. But he's going to get a phone card or soemthing this week, so i will get to talk to him on the phone. That might make me feel better. I just hate these sudden changes from getting to be so happy cus he's around me everyday to now. I hope one day I will grow out of this. Right now I jsut wanna get through with school and get into Uiversity....that's all I want to do. Anyway....I better get back to work...... |
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| Im in COMP125 right now and it's kind of hard and confusing but I get to take a break so yay. For some weird reason I'm feeling very upset today I started crying in my bio lecture and now I just really want to go home and cry some more. I dont' knwo what's going on but something really bothers me. I dont' even know why it bothers me so much cus it makes me feel uncomfortable that it matters to me. Everytime I think about it...I feel like crying and it makes me feel very afraid of the consequences.....maybe I'm just going through a phase....I dont know but I really hope taht it will never happen. I'm just so afraid that it will right now tho and it's actually making my heart hurt. What the heck is going on? It's really freaking me out.....I think I really need my friends around. I miss them so much! I miss Cody too......I went to visit him over the weekend....I had a good time...just hope he felt the same. I also went to visit my sister too....she didn't seem so happy living in vancouver but I can understand why....poor girl. Anyway I still feel like shit...hoefully tomorow will be better...teacher starting to talk again...better go...miss everyone...pls comment me or somethign to let me you know guys still care about me |
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| I am so tired....can't do hw anymore...not due till wendesday or so anyway...going to...zZzZzZzZzZ.....I LOVE YOU |
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